Patterns, learning how to teach myself to improve on myself

Finding a rhythm in how you work the most effectively at anything that you have to do on a repeated basis seems to have a lot of merit. At least it does to me right now.

This is important because of how things seem to cycle in and out of a persons life. Now each person is different but I believe it is easy to draw some universal elements out of what I am saying. In the last week things got really really busy for about two days then settled down to a normal level, when they where at there peak of course a bunch of family and personal stuff kicked off as well.

Recognizing that this is a thing and seeing that getting really busy will also contribute to family stuff being more stressful because of the busy nature of the mindset already being worked to an extreme.

I have some really great examples in my life right now of people coming with multiple stress patterns at extreme levels and dealing with everything calmly and correctly. It has helped me be able to have success doing the same thing and really know what my own levels are and when I am tapped out and how much is my limit. Which is exciting because a I read something the other day that said that, "you can't pass your limits until you know what they are". This of course, has been very true for me lately and is part of the success of everything that is going on right now.

Just started on a new partnership relationship with an exciting company today, majority vote by partnership. Yesterday made a contact with a new company who will help execute on some projects coming down the pipeline.

Really, these patterns of work and growth are part of a greater pattern recognition in knowing the area's that I needed to learn more about myself in that where on my mind two years ago. I knew I needed to grow and so I took some chances and forced the situations to be the highest likelihood to teach me the things I needed to know.

Early on in my life I didn't realize that this was a purposeful thing but it has been deliberate more and more since my early 20's. Now it is part of my habits, to see an area that I am in need of change and engineer the world around me to maximize my ability to successfully change to meet that goal.

Long day back in the saddle...VICTORY!!!

Got into the office today at around 6:am didn't leave until after 11:pm. It's 1:am and I am still on this laptop working, lol. The girlfriend is right here next to me, she actually dictates our pace more than I do, gotta love a driven woman.

The last meeting of the night was a client of hers that was ready, and hungry to work. Completely blew away my expectations and I was so happy to be apart of helping that situation develop.

Attitude of gratitude right now in my mind. Big lesson, it's all about the number 4. That will be kind of an inside joke for the next month or so...hopefully I have access to a laptop for more than a month and can continue to post on all four of my blogs consistently.

It feels amazing to write again, I finally have some answers to things in my business life that had been unresolved and in many ways holding me back from moving forward. The last two weeks have seen those obstacles overcome.

The structure of my podcast, structure of my blogs, and what my immediate next steps are. These things have all been worked out and I could not be happier.

Big things this fall, "VICTORY!!!"
~J

August, Studios, A Studio

August 2015,
yeah it's here already and I am already way older than I wanted to be when I got serious about writing. Well not everyone is Stephen King.

It has been a crazy few years, last time I was blogging I was in a way different place in life. Broke, Single, and living as an unwanted guest in someone's basement.

Now I am not single for the longest period in my life, 2 years this month. I live in a huge house in the burbs with some amazing people, I have a Jr. Partnership in a company I started where I am the youngest partner. Still not making the money I want to but there is a ton of great momentum towards that end.

Last year around this time I was living with my good friend Rob on the north side of Chicago a block from the beach. Yes, the beach, nobody told me about the beaches in Illinois, they are a lot like the beaches in Northern California.

Two years ago I was working on Jupiter Ascending and loosing my mind a little. 12 - 16 hours a day with all the drama that goes with a $100 million dollar feature film. I was just a Logistics Assistant (Tents Team). Still today the most political film I have every worked on.

So that's August, always something major...big life events seem to always happen around my birthday and they are always good in a big way. Yeah I said big twice, I blocked it Brian.

Studios,
for the last year I have been a Supervising Producer, now an Executive Producer of a feature film with a large multi-million dollar budget. 5 years ago I was an extra...just sayin. This film went from a $70k budget with indie aspirations about distribution then the director decided to bring me on and I changed all that.

What can I say, I saw bigger potential in the film then some DVD that sits in the directors house that is a movie less than 1000 people have seen. I think the director and the film had this amazing potential and I bet the farm on it. That's just how I produce, I really love my projects and I love giving someone with a vision, a dream an honest to God chance to get that accomplished.

All of this said, we now are dealing with studios...facepalm.

It's so much more complicated than anyone can imagine. Basically if you really want to get into the film business and your an aspiring producer...switch majors from film to business, then get your MBA, then go to Law School, then take your Series 7. Now your ready to intern at a studio...then you can begin to think about calling yourself a producer and not feel like the guy driving a leopard print upholstered Cadillac.

Basically we have to run money through at least two different "investment vehicles" and two different banks unless some investor wants to write a giant check, (hing:they never do). SO, we take the smaller check the write (it's still millions of dollars btw) and make it bigger. Then take that and put it into something else which makes it bigger still then we get to make the movie...it took us literally 13 months to figure all of this out, the whole time dragging the poor director along and saying "yeah just be patient it's a process"...

So, until this investment drops an the stars align with a blue moon (which we just had) I must do as many things at once as possible,[keeping the director sane, my partners happy, making the minimum to live, and trying to push this project forward]...my girlfriend and my mom are kinda all that's keeping ME sane right now. That and a lot of praying, yeah take your pick of deities, if your an atheist, don't be a producer. A Chaotition (Jeff Goldblum from Jurassic Park) might work...

A Studio,
this is kind of  my version of "a new hope". My girlfriend has a studio space that is extremely amazing and I am writing in her office right now, been here since 5 am this morning. Planing on launching a couple of podcasts and some other cool things from here to pay the bills and feed the dream.

Jason M. Castle, Creating Me

New Blog!! New Beginnings!!!

It has been a long time since I have written anything and it feels like coming home to finally be putting my thoughts down again. A writer friend of mine, Brian White and I where talking about how when we don't write for long periods of time something inside us is sleeping. Like we are not a fully functioning human being if we are not writing somewhere somehow.

This blog is about my random thoughts, I have other blogs that are about various topics. This one is about nothing, just what is in and on my mind.